night, the time i am excited about getting a rest from the nothingness of being
night, the time i hate for all those endless pathetic dreams and nightmares
it’s a dark place i feel safe from the glares of the others
a dark place that feeds my fears of the dangerous unknown
forced to meet with the spirits of the other world where they look no more human
and locked in with the enemy who turns boldly ugly until i call JESUS
by the only one who speaks truth, i deafen my ear
and His light i can’t on my own bare not out of the dark not out of the night
Now the morning, the time i anticipated the least about my day
when feelings become real and dreams as the wind
morning, the time i am fitted into the assured new mercies
i open my eyes and beholding sun or gray cloud
it feels like pickled cucumbers drawn out of the glass
my feet feel heavy like borrowed weights I’d claim
my bed feels like the world i try to fit in, but i slime myself back into it like i do every day
and i feel myself back to sleep, the same place my Lord says i now ought not be
‘a little slumber a little folding of the hands….’
i drag myself out of the smelly comfort
after many unnatural callings to awaken
i heed only because others do and i want to fit in
if not because i signed up for an earning, that, requires me to meet my end of the bargain
i excuse myself and my feelings, so my feet touch the ground
It is past midday and i have achieved
nothing, but being alive, a pitiful meal and perplexed questions to the divine
i don’t know what He knows but He sure is sorry my ignorance of much truth
i wouldn’t mind Him thrusting my entire being against some concrete enlightenment
but perhaps that speaks against His fair ways.
like everyone else i have to figure out the day and the night with the might i am given
as for the tasks i have chosen to take on, i partially blame me for those choices
i’d question the DNA for failing when others thrived high and well but it is busy making and taking orders
at the end of the day and the beginning of the night
the familiar and unknown draws nigh
after so many years, i could have gotten used to life
but who can claim man had the first idea of gaming,
better than the Wii, life’s challenges gets harder the more you progress you make
i might be foolish, but i won’t be cheaply fooled, i know nothing that awaits me
so i hope and believe as if to manipulate the future for my own good
while the sovereign one looks upon me
to lead me to meet a chain of good or challenge me with a passing cloud of hard or bad
i live torn between day and night.
MBA